Finalistka programu SAS: Who Dares Wins

EXCLUSIVE: SAS: Who Dares Wins runner-up reveals what happens behind the scenes ??" from bizarre toilet trips, rationing food and 'brutal' conditions. With SAS: Who Dares Wins' first all-female final wrapping up for the season, this year's runner-up has shared what goes on behind the scenes of the popular show ??" and it's not for the fainthearted. Claire Aves, 38, a health and wellness coach and PT originally from Bermondsey, south London, was one of the lucky few to make it to the final of the brutal programme which tests people on their emotional, mental and physical strength. The mum-of-one, who has a daughter named Skye Lilly, is a gym fanatic with a love of combat fighting, bodybuilding and martial arts, and was looking for a challenge that would push her to the limit. She is thrilled to have made history in the all-female final. Talking about the moment the hood came off in the parade square, she told Jam Press: ??sI looked around and I was like, wow, it's four women here. "This is insane and amazing and strong! ??sI thought, 'right, that's it, we're at the end' and they went 'no, ladies go to bed, we've got another day ahead of us'. "At that moment, I didn't know how to feel. "One of my most loathsome parts was the sand dunes; we would literally slide all the way down, then climb back up again. "I was like 'What the f***k, oh my god, I can't do this no more.' "I felt like I was dragging my soul behind me and I could see it crying from the pain." When faced with a tough drilling from DS Remy, Claire remained stone-faced, calling the team a ??sbrutally amazing??? presence at the camp. She said: ??sRemy had this smile, you didn't want to see that smile. "It meant something was coming up and we were going to be doing something hard. "But yeah, they were brutal, but they had kind hearts; they knew when to back off. "They're obviously pushing you to extreme limits and past what you feel your limits are, but that's what you're there for. "You're there to be broken down to be picked back up again.??? Aside from the physical challenges, there were many moments off-screen that also tested the participants, including the lack of privacy, even when nature calls. Claire said: ??sWe barely got any sleep because you had to go to the toilet in pairs so you could be fast asleep and at 3am your partner might wake you up to go. "Having to poo in front of other people was absolutely hilarious. "It sounds really rude but it's really funny. I was sitting there, I farted and I shouted 'sorry, Tom!'. "Then he told me to hang on a minute and popped one out and we were creasing at each other." Claire also shares her disappointment at the three square meals served daily, which were as much of a challenge as the sand dunes. She said: ??sAt one time we were coming into the tent and it looked like jam roly-poly, we were buzzing. "But ended up being the tiniest, round, small ham sandwich. "We were devastated. "I felt bad for other people and ended up giving away some of my food, but then I had lack of energy because I was eating less than everyone else. "We would cut up thin slices of boiled eggs to save them for later because we knew we'd be exhausted and hungry." The contestants would be forced to run whenever they were doing something, so that they were constantly moving - a habit Claire found hard to kick once she was back home in Hoo, Kent. She said: "I'll run to the kitchen to get a cup of tea, then run back to my desk and basically run all over my house. "It took me a long time to snap out of it and go back to a 'normal' pace." Claire, who is a domestic abuse survivor, also hopes her experience will help other women. She said: ??sI was absolutely chuffed for the girls who made it, I couldn't have been prouder. "Paige especially is like my best friend now. "I was of course upset that I didn't win because you push so hard and physically you can't do more but I'm proud of myself for getting through it and grateful for the friends I made along the way. "[As a domestic abuse survivor], you can lose yourself and you lose who you are as a person. "Having suffered physical and mental abuse in my late teens, I feel that completing this course has finally got rid of the demons I was fighting in my head by being open and speaking about the issues I dealt with. "My mission is to be able to help young girls and women who suffered what I did and know that they are not alone, and to not be alone. "Mental health is paramount. "You are capable of anything you put your mind to." Since coming home, she has thrown herself into new projects including supporting army veterans and a project called Women Warriors, helping young women embrace fitness and the joy of challenging themselves. Pictured: Claire Aves World Rights, No Australia Rights, No Netherlands Rights, No Russia Rights, No United Kingdom Rights, No United States of America Rights